Had my weight in at WW today and manage to lose some weight even though I'm having that dreaded week of the month...
But I'm very happy with the result; 1,1 kg (2.4lbs).
That means that in 5 weeks I have lost exactly 7 kilos (15.4 lbs). I'm very happy. And I also earned my second gold star, we get them every tree kilos we lose. They don't have any value except to represent our blood, sweat and tears an our journey to a healthier us.

As a little gift for my accomplishment I treated myself to the cinema.
Went to see 2012. Good movie although very "Hollywood" if you know what I mean, everything turns OK in the last second, and there are many of those moments in this movie (at least for the main protagonist). But the graphics are good and I enjoyed the movie overall. I don't regret paying to watch in in the cinema.going to the cinema
Saw a trailer of another one I want to see which is Avatar so I'll put in on the list with New Moon and Sherlock Holmes.


Edit: I had forgotten the last good news I recived today. As of January next year they are lowering my rent with 10% !!! That is very very nice...

To put it lightly an anorexic person doesn't eat and when they look in the mirror, it doesn't matter how thin they are, thinks they are fat.

I was the opposite.
Loved to eat (still do) and no matter how big I got when I looked in the mirror I didn't see myself as fat. Overweight sure, but obese? Never!
The only times I thought I looked obese was when I looked at myself in photos. But have on gotten to be this big it is not without lying to oneself. I was fat in thos pictures because of the clothes I wore, because of the pose I stuck, the lightning wasn't good, "that friend" is just too skinny, and so on and so fort...

How sad is it that the thinnest I remember to be was at 73 kg (160 lbs) and that was when I was 13!!!!
And that was still overweight.

I'm finally starting to loose weight but in a bit more than a month it's Christmas and I must admit I'm scared out of my mind.
This year I'm flying to Argentina to visit my father, who, as I have mention in some other post is obese.
I will be there from 21/12 to 11/1. I know there will be much eating and really, REALLY good food. At best I will maintain my weight (I really want this!!) but I'm scared to gain the weight lost and gain some more.
I know that if I watch what I eat I shouldn't have to much trouble but the problem is that there will be food out 24/7. Breakfast, lunch a dinner will all be big things with many courses and deserts, not to mention the snacks between the meals.

I'm thinking of finding a gym there to workout. But how big of chance is there that one exist that is open most of the time even with all the holiday that exist in this part of the year...

I better stop or I will depress myself more than I already am. It's "that" time of the month for me at zits have appeared all over me as if I'm just entering me teens! YUK!

I've been to the weight watchers # more times since last time I wrote. The results are:

2nd week: lost 1,9kg = 4,1lbs
3rd week: lost 0,2kg = 0,2lb
4th week (yesterday): 2,0kg = 4,4lbs

In total for four weeks I have lost 5,9kg (13lbs)

Which means my current weight is 88,8kg (195,7lbs) - finally under the 90/200 line!!

I'm most pleased with myself.

The only setback is my training schedule... at most I do 2, 30 minutes workout per week

PS: when I count how much weight I loose I love doing it in lbs, the number is always higher than with kg =)

Ha! Just heard in the new about a town here in Sweden that has some..problemes with their phones..

The thing is no matter which phone number you call in the city all of the in habitans phones rings....!

Talk about non-stop ringing! And this has been going on since May!

So I haven't written in this journal in a very long time.. more than a year! And I still pay yearly for the account.. so I better start writing or I will kick myself in the but...

This summer I got the biggest chock of my life. I stepped on the scale in the bathroom and it said 97kg!! (thats 214 lbs for those of you who used that). I have never in my life been as fat as I am now. Which scared me since I saw my self slowly becoming my father. I don't know how much he weights but I know he is obese.
Some of you might thing it isn't that much but I'm short 158cm or 5'2" which means I'm at least 40 kilos (88lbs) over weight.

I've been big-boned going on fat all my life but never had the motivation to do something about it. I mentioned my father earlier and I've had big issues with him because every time I would try to lose some weight he would unconsciously drag me back. He would think it was great and then in the next sentence stuck me with him as the fat ones in the family. I know he didn't mean anything bad but to me it was like he was say look at me this is how you will be in the future and nothing you do will ever change. It always broke my heart and my mother had to pick up the pieces and I found the strength some years back and sat him down and talked with him about it. Every now and then it still slips past his lips but I have learned to simply "not hear them".

My mother was the exact opposite of my father. She was never as fat as me but she was overweight and she lost it and she was always pushing me to do the same. During many years I thought she was a pain. Always looking over my shoulder, "should you eat that?","are you sure about that?", "why don't you take a walk?" "when are you going to get serious?" She has always been my best friend, but how I disliked her at those times. I've always know that she did it because she loved me and saw how unhappy I always was with my looks. But it came a time I also had to sit down and talk to her as I did with my father. She could still cook all the healthy food she wanted but to lay off the pressure. When I was ready and had the strength and the conviction to lose weight I would do it on my own.

And at last we have gotten to last week. I found my strength, I found my motivation.
After watching the biggest loser I said to myself; Britt-Marie it is time. It is time for you to change yourself.

So I started The next day I joined the Weight Watchers with a weight of 94,7kg (209lbs).
I bought myself a an Orbitrek Elite cross trainer (I've tried gyms before but always felt really uncomfortable in them) and try to do 30 minutes on it every day.

Yesterday I was at the Weight Watchers again and the scale showed 92,9 I lost 1,8 kilos! Almost 4 lbs.

I'm very, very happy!

Snagged this one from tamakin, whose I responded to. It's a lot of fun! 

"Getting to know you ... more"

1. Name:

2. Birthday:

3. Where do you live:

4: What are you studying/What are you working as:

5. What makes you happy:

6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:

7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:

8. An interesting fact about you:

9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:

10. Favorite place to be:

11. Favorite lyric:

12. Best time of the year:

13. Weirdest food you like:

RECOMMEND

1. A film:

2. A book:

3. A song:

4: A band:

FANDOM

1. Favorite Fandom:

2. OTP/OT3:

3. Icon/Fic Journal (so I can join):

PLUS

1. One thing you like about me:

2. Two things you like about yourself:

3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you.

Ok so some time ago I wrote a small ficlet/drabble for the prompt "Champion" at nekid_spike. It's a small background story for my story  Wasteland, that only has the prologue and first part written... (you can find it here) hopefully there will be more of these ficlets which will lead me to finally being able to write the whole story...

This haven't been beta'ed but I have reread it a couple of times and run it through a grammar check.
If you find errors please let me know! I would greatly appreciate it, grammar really kicks my butt most of the time...


Title: They used to call us champions
Author: alterian
Pairing: None - but mention of Spike and Angel, plus a surprise.
Raiting: PG
Disclaimer: the characters aren't mine
A/N: Ok so this is a small ficlet of a much, much bigger story, but you don't need to know that story to read this...
I would really apreciate if you would tell me what you think....

 2nd post of the movie-day at nekid_spike. This time it's only movie posters starring our favorietes characters!
Click on them to see them better!

Some days ago at nekid_spikeall the btvs/ats characters went and became moviestars!!
This first post have 3 wallpapers (pairing: Spike/Buffy, Angel/Faith, Spike/Angel) all are worksafe and there are even icons of the spuffy one!

I made two manips to the "Stephen King" challenge at whedon_art

One that actually won!!!!!

I here by give you Dawn and Fred
(Both are worksafe but beware of blood)

So a lot have been happening these last 2-4 weeks. My grandaunt, Elida, fell and broke her leg (she's 81 years old) so was in the hospital for a week (the had to put in spikes) and after that moved to a nursing home where they found blood clots. That cleared up and now she onlyy suffers from the leg pain and other pains that come from old age. 

Her sister, my granmother (86), went into depresion after Elida's fall. These two old ladies have always lived together, in the same building and efter grandpa passed away, in the same home. They moved to Sweden 12-13 years ago and since they can't speak Swedish they alway depend on eachother and the rest for the family for companionship. And when something happens to one of them, the other one is also affected. Though to be honest, there isn't a day that those two don't bicker with eachother. Seriously, we are talking about two person whech the family affectionally calls Tom & Jerry (you know... from the toons). Anyway as I was saying, grandmother went into depresion and suddenly she tells us that her medications has stopped working. So there she went.. to the hospital... and she's still there waiting to transfer to the nursing home. 

With all of these problemes it was desided that they would move to a retirement home(?). They Have been living in there own apartement doing their own shopping and so on, but had nurses come in at mornings and evening to help them with their clothes and showers and things which required heavy lifting. But know they are moving. They will still be having their own aprtements in the building but nurses will be around 24/7 should anything happened.

My poor mother is exhausted. Since they don't know the language she must bee there for every doctors appointement + visits everyday so they don't feel isolated + fight with the state for  their housing and compensation. Since Kristinehamn don't have a intepreter, though they are legally bound to hire one, my mother took time of her job too keep up with everything. Hopefully by next month things have settled down.

On a brighter note, were are having early summer days here. Yester day I took my bike and went for a ride, a two hours ride. I have been Here in Eskilstuna for two years but don't really know much of the city except the main district. So I turned right and kept going on one of Sweden's national bikeroads until I came to the forest. Passed some viking remaints on the way. Took some pictures that turnes out really good. I'll be showing them in the next couple of days...

All that exercise was good for me and I really enjoyed it. But god does my body ache today....

It's Earth Day today! And we're having warm spring days here. Went for a walk yesterday and took this photo. I thought it fitted today perfectly...


Spring is sprouting by ~Alterian on deviantART


...and on a sidenote I have spent most of today cleaning my kitchen. and Man did it need a cleaning...!

Isn't exercise suppose to help one sleep better at night? Nowadays whenever I do exercise, I'm wide awake after only 4-5 hours of sleep.
Just like now... I woke up totally refreshed and can go back to sleep. And it's only 02:45 in the morning!

Ok I just had to recomend something. For those who haven't seen the show Eli Stone I highly recomend you do. I woll soon sit down and watch the last(?) episode. I don't remember when the last a new show touched me as much as this one....

For more info on the show go HERE or HERE 

Two manips of Spike I did last month

Click on them to see bigger versions 

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I finally took the plunge... I'm now the proud holder of an paid account!!!
As the $ cost only about 6 Swedish kroner I desided to give my self an early birtday present!!

I couple of weeks ago I entered a challange over at  whedon_art .
The subject dor the challange was fire, this is what I came up with.
There is one manip of Dawn and one of Willow.

This are my offereings for my first day at spring_with_xan, had really fun doing them!
To view them you must have an account at LJ and be logged in on it. 
The images are all worksafe, click on them to see the larger (better quality) version...

Some spike manip I did last month with promts given at nekid_spike and a challenge at darker_spike

Worksafe (2 with bare chest)




( Lets introduce Spike! )