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The truth about my life

How can I tell my family the thruth?
They think that for the past 5 years I have been studying and that I will graduate in a year.
How can I tell them that it's all been a lie. That for the past years I have been doing nothing at all? Every year starts the same, with me actually wanting to study and enrolling for courses but after a couple of weeks I just cant drag myself from home to school. I know I should have more discipline, but I'm week.

I hate myself for not having the strenght. But most of all I hate myself for how I'm going to wound my family when I finally tell the truth. I love them. They mean everything to me. And it kills me that, most probably, by this time next year everything will have change. They will still love me, I don't doubt that, but they will most likely never belive or trust me anymore.

At the same time it's good that this is coming to an end, it has obligated me to begin make order in my life, and the firts thing on the list is get a job.

I have an job-interview on monday.


Jan. 8th, 2011 01:45 pm (UTC)
I found this: http://www.marcandangel.com/2010/11/29/75-ways-to-stay-unhappy-forever/

I think it has many good points about how we tend to make ourselves unhappy.